{"product_id":"unmasked-my-life-solving-cold-cases-9781250865960b","title":"Unmasked: My Life Solving Cold Cases","description":"\u003cb\u003eFrom Paul Holes, the detective who found the Golden State Killer, Unmasked is a memoir that \"grabs its reader in a stranglehold and proves more fascinating than fiction and darker than any noir narrative.\" (LA Magazine)\u003c\/b\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eI order another bourbon, neat. This is the drink that will flip the switch. I don’t even know how I got here, to this place, to this point. Something is happening to me lately. I’m drinking too much. My sheets are soaking wet when I wake up from nightmares of decaying corpses. I order another drink and swig it, trying to forget about the latest case I can’t shake.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eCrime solving for me is more complex than the challenge of the hunt, or the process of piecing together a scientific puzzle. The thought of good people suffering drives me, for better or worse, to the point of obsession. People always ask how I am able to detach from the horrors of my work. Part of it is an innate capacity to compartmentalize; the rest is experience and exposure, and I’ve had plenty of both. But I have always taken pride in the fact that I can keep my feelings locked up to get the job done. It’s only been recently that it feels like all that suppressed darkness is beginning to seep out.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eWhen I look back at my long career, there is a lot I am proud of. I have caught some of the most notorious killers of the twenty-first century and brought justice and closure for their victims and families. I want to tell you about a lifetime solving these cold cases, from Laci Peterson to Jaycee Dugard to the Pittsburg homicides to, yes, my twenty-year-long hunt for the Golden State Killer.\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eBut a deeper question eats at me as I ask myself, at what cost? I have sacrificed relationships, joy - even fatherhood - because the pursuit of evil always came first. Did I make the right choice? It’s something I grapple with every day. Yet as I stand in the spot where a young girl took her last breath, as I look into the eyes of her family, I know that, for me, there has never been a choice. “I don’t know if I can solve your case,” I whisper. “But I promise I will do my best.”\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003eIt is a promise I know I can keep.","brand":"Celadon Books","offers":[{"title":"Bargain","offer_id":42826772971600,"sku":"9781250865960B","price":6.49,"currency_code":"CAD","in_stock":false}],"thumbnail_url":"\/\/cdn.shopify.com\/s\/files\/1\/0592\/8173\/5760\/files\/9781250865960-l.jpg?v=1785907415","url":"https:\/\/bookoutlet.com\/en-ca\/products\/unmasked-my-life-solving-cold-cases-9781250865960b","provider":"Book Outlet","version":"1.0","type":"link"}